"What happened on the France tour?" I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve been asked that in the last couple weeks! So I’ll do my best to put into words something that often went beyond description and was, of course, different for every person present.

Arriving in Marseille, my heart leaped at seeing the Mediterranean Sea for the first time. I can’t describe what I felt, other than such a sense of familiarity. Tobias has talked in the past about how water carries so much consciousness, and I could really feel it there.

It was a beautiful cloudless day, but as soon as Shaumbra started arriving, the wind picked up with amazing force. Later we learned it was the Mistral winds that sometimes blow through the area, but I just figured it was the Shaumbra energy arriving and clearing things out!

The first three days of the tour we stayed near Saintes Maries de la Mer, a town steeped in the energy and mythology of Mary Magdalene, Mary Jacobe and Mary Solome. When we went to town the first day I headed straight for the sea, going as far out as possible on a jetty, to just be with it for a while. I sat and breathed for a long time and eventually noticed a brilliant reflection of electric blue light in the water just in front of me. It was almost as bright as the sunlight reflection, but a vivid blue. There was nothing I could see to cause this, but it was as if there was a neon blue light hovering above the water but only the reflection of it was visible.

After lunch we met at the fortified church in the middle of the town. Going inside, I was almost overcome with all the energies that I myself had poured into it over so many lifetimes (not that specific place, but "the church" in general), and in that moment I declared, "It is enough. I'm done with this!" I invited all the "church" parts of me to come home, letting them know that their mission had been accomplished.

During our tour, there would be a channel each morning and then we would head out and visit some interesting place. During one of the meetings Norma was invited to share her story of Mary Magdalene. It was beautiful and touching – and completely different than the one that Tobias shares in his Sexual Energies School. I began to realize a new level of what this integration of light and dark was about, because both stories were actually true, just told from completely different perspectives. And I realized how the past, our own story, is simply whatever we make of it in the remembering and the telling. It is ALL true, we simply choose the “facts” we want to focus on.

Another day we went to the city of Arles, visiting an old Roman amphitheater and another huge old church. The architecture was amazing, and the ruins were quite interesting to see in person, but the part I personally enjoyed the most was going alone to an old cloister next to the church. I walked into the enclosed area, a covered walkway surrounded by pillars with a garden in the center, and immediately felt completely at home. How many times have I retreated into the sacredness and solitude of cloisters, shutting out the world and turning inward? I used to wonder why anyone would want to become a priest or nun, but I imagine those were lifetimes chosen to balance out the drama and the trauma of being on the “other side of the fence” and hunted down by the church!

In Arles we also visited an ancient cemetery with a church and smaller chapel that had simply exquisite acoustics! One could sing a note in there and it would echo through the chambers on and on. More than once someone would begin toning and more Shaumbra would join in until the walls fairly rang with our voices. What an experience…!

We also visited the walled city of Carcassonne, another place full of magic and history and countless levels of energies to feel. Whether one had been there in a past lifetime or not, you could certainly feel so much that had taken place there.

After three days we traveled to what would be our "home base" for the remainder of the journey - the marvelous Chateau des Ducs castle! I loved staying there, and it was in the castle and surrounding experiences that things really got intense. First we went to market day in Limoux, had lunch in a grand old hotel, then went to Rennes les Bains. We hiked up to the "Chair of Isis" and that was the first place where I intimately knew I had been there before. It was very, very real, not just the “idea” that I’d been there before.

Hiking up the trail, it was as if I knew every step of the way. I kept hearing "This I know" deep inside, and it was from thousands of years ago, long before the Church was ever in the area. When the group stopped at the chair, I scrambled on up the side of the mountain, knowing there was more up there. Sure enough, there were remnants of old walls and such. I could feel exactly how they used to be, and even what was up at the top of the hill. I felt that after spending a week or two in that place, I could write a whole book about what used to happen there. I have to say, life gets really interesting when you allow yourself to feel its many levels and layers!

The next day we went to the village where Nostradamus lived. We saw the outside of his old house with strange symbols carved on the wooden beams, toured the ruins of an old Abbey, then went to a little place near the base of Mt. Bugarach, called the "upside down mountain" because the rocks on top are older than the rocks below. Apparently there is a lot of UFO activity there and the government keeps the area under constant surveillance. Interesting place, and another I'd love to revisit.

The next day was the biggie - visiting Montsegur, the stronghold of the Cathars. Geoff reminded us to simply feel whatever was there to feel, and to also take note of whether we were feeling our own old stuff, or simply the energies of the area. We got off the coach and went up to the monument commemorating where the Cathars who refused to recant their beliefs chose to walk willingly into the fire. Lots to feel indeed…

We spent a bit of time there, breathing and toning, then made our way up the steep trail to the top. Along the way, I encountered energies of some of the old Cathars still coming down that trail, singing on their way to the fire. It was actually their moment of spiritual triumph and they were still reliving it, over and over. I could feel their sense of victory over the world, and how it actually created the paradox of them still being stuck there. I also felt my own story from that time, and it certainly wasn't what I “expected.”

We stayed up there for an hour or two, eventually gathering for some impromptu music with Gerhard and Einat. It was very beautiful, and I know we left a blessing of honor there. It was a place of both profound beauty and extreme imbalance, for the Cathars were devoted only to the light, forsaking all worldly experiences and pleasure as products of the devil and darkness. And of course this brought upon them a hideous experience of the dark. We felt the very real impact of the separation of light and dark, and understood more than ever why we are now integrating it within ourselves.

Our last day we went to Rennes le Chateau, a place full of mystery. It would take a book to tell all the puzzles and mysteries of this place, most of which have never been solved. During lunch we heard an interesting presentation by a real Templar Knight, and later spent time visiting the various buildings. In a glass house up on the wall, we had more music and toning with Gerhard and Einat, a truly magical experience.

That evening was the last group gathering and channel with Adamus and he finally told his version of the story of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene. It was fascinating! And at one point during that channel he climbed up on top of the table, much to the amusement of everyone else!

What I have experienced during and after the tour is an incredible opening of the floodgates of the past, and almost every moment of sleep has been filled with dreams and memories. I really understand now why we come in with the veil of forgetfulness. What I remember and feel is but a tiny fragment of my history, and it is already a challenge to absorb and deal with so much.

And oh yes, we took hundreds of pictures! There are now two photo albums where you can see the places we visited and the fun we had. Lots of pictures here Shaumbra in France 1 and more pictures and even a couple videos here Shaumbra in France 2. And here you can see a lovely video of the France Tour that Geoff put together.

It’s quite an amazing experience to revisit places and feelings and times where history was made – and remember ourselves there!